Failed!
The cravings got the better of me, and I relented. So I guess I can add this to my 'Other' attempts. Oh Well, at least my lungs got a 3 month break from the evil weed.
I hurt my back this week, and have been in some major pain, causing me to stress out and I just had enough and gave in.
Till next attempt, Bye Bye!
Monday, August 10, 2009
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
Smoke Free Week 11
11 weeks down the track! I am trying to get over my sudden increase in urges to smoke, I think the problem was I stopped eating those damn mints! I haven't had any mints today and I feel like a smoke, so I better head over to the shop soon and get some.
I am really trying to think of the reasons I gave up smoking and just push on ahead until I finally think about smoking no longer. If I really look at the time I am spending thinking about smoking today, it's only been 2 or 3 times and for only a few minutes each time that I get a really strong desire to smoke. The trick is that you must push the thoughts out of your head by occupying your mind or by denying that you really want a smoke, if you don't deny the craving, then it's only a matter of time till you break.
The hardest thing to do for me, is to keep up the level of commitment that you have in the first few weeks, you must stay motivated! If you do start smoking again, make sure it is not through a hasty spur of the moment decision and make a pact with yourself to re-analyze your feelings in an hour or so. A spur of the moment thing is exactly what your brain is trying to trick you into, just push on and in a few minutes the craving will be far less difficult to deal with.
One thing that surprised me yesterday, was my son was smoking in my warehouse with the doors closed while I was out for a few hours, the smell made me feel sick for a brief moment. This was entirely new, as I usually find the smell of cigarette smoke very attractive. Hmmmmmm! maybe I am being turned into one of 'THEM' slowly? You know? THEM! the non-smokers!
;)
Onward March to week 12!
I am really trying to think of the reasons I gave up smoking and just push on ahead until I finally think about smoking no longer. If I really look at the time I am spending thinking about smoking today, it's only been 2 or 3 times and for only a few minutes each time that I get a really strong desire to smoke. The trick is that you must push the thoughts out of your head by occupying your mind or by denying that you really want a smoke, if you don't deny the craving, then it's only a matter of time till you break.
The hardest thing to do for me, is to keep up the level of commitment that you have in the first few weeks, you must stay motivated! If you do start smoking again, make sure it is not through a hasty spur of the moment decision and make a pact with yourself to re-analyze your feelings in an hour or so. A spur of the moment thing is exactly what your brain is trying to trick you into, just push on and in a few minutes the craving will be far less difficult to deal with.
One thing that surprised me yesterday, was my son was smoking in my warehouse with the doors closed while I was out for a few hours, the smell made me feel sick for a brief moment. This was entirely new, as I usually find the smell of cigarette smoke very attractive. Hmmmmmm! maybe I am being turned into one of 'THEM' slowly? You know? THEM! the non-smokers!
;)
Onward March to week 12!
Sunday, July 26, 2009
Smoke Free Day 75
Still going! I started taking the Champix again, but the cravings are still there and very strong, several times I have nearly jumped in the car and gone to the shop for ciggies.
I am not a happy camper right now and am trying to think of the negatives if I smoke again, but I am really craving the taste and the relaxed feeling of a smoke right now. Damn this is getting harder! WTF? I thought the first week was supposed to be the hardest? I am just going day by day now, and I need to find some way to get back my determination to quit for good, because at the moment it just isn't there!
I am not a happy camper right now and am trying to think of the negatives if I smoke again, but I am really craving the taste and the relaxed feeling of a smoke right now. Damn this is getting harder! WTF? I thought the first week was supposed to be the hardest? I am just going day by day now, and I need to find some way to get back my determination to quit for good, because at the moment it just isn't there!
Thursday, July 23, 2009
Smoke Free day 72
Here we are at day 72, and still haven't had a ciggie! I have only taken one or two Champix in the past week, and I have really been getting some cravings. I am going to start taking them every day and night again or else I can see myself failing!
Damn, I have been really grumpy and agitated all week, I am constantly feeling like a smoke and can almost taste it! What a turn around from a week or so ago, I am not so confident now :(
I'll see how I feel in a couple of days after taking the Champix regularly again.
Sigh!
Damn, I have been really grumpy and agitated all week, I am constantly feeling like a smoke and can almost taste it! What a turn around from a week or so ago, I am not so confident now :(
I'll see how I feel in a couple of days after taking the Champix regularly again.
Sigh!
Wednesday, July 15, 2009
Smoke Free 2 Months and 2 (or is it 3?) days
Well here we are 2 months down the track and still haven't had a puff. I didn't think about a smoke for at least 45 minutes this morning! Things are improving! I was trying to convince myself that I would go on a smoking holiday each year,.... Yeah right! thats a smart idea, go without all year and then smoke like a chimney for 1 or 2 weeks and go through the withdrawal symptoms all over again, maybe I'll just take longer holidays?
Thursday, July 9, 2009
Smoke Free Day 58!
I am still getting urges to smoke, sometimes strong urges, but I am trying to stay positive. This is officially the 2nd longest time I have gone without a cigarette in the past 32 years. WOW! time flies when you're having fun!
The government here is talking about jacking up the taxes on ciggies once again. This will put the price of a pack of 30 cigarettes at around $20.00 per pack, So That would make my rolling tobacco around $50 a pack
Man I am glad I gave up when I did! I am also forgetting to take the champix quite often (Wifey has been cold turkey for a couple of weeks now) I would still love a smoke, but keep the side effects thanks!
The government here is talking about jacking up the taxes on ciggies once again. This will put the price of a pack of 30 cigarettes at around $20.00 per pack, So That would make my rolling tobacco around $50 a pack
Man I am glad I gave up when I did! I am also forgetting to take the champix quite often (Wifey has been cold turkey for a couple of weeks now) I would still love a smoke, but keep the side effects thanks!
Tuesday, June 30, 2009
7 weeks and counting!
7 weeks without a smoke! WoW! The past week has been a bit hard at times, and I have felt like I really didn't want to give up. But then I remember the coughing and the spluttering and the foul taste from having smoked too many cigarettes. So I then decided it's just one day at a time!
Last time I stopped I went for around 6 weeks and I remember it seemed harder then, but it's just a matter of pushing those thoughts aside and getting back on track. It's not really a craving but just another trick your brain plays on you. I must admit I have times where I really can't imagine a future without a cigarette and wonder how will I ever really enjoy relaxing again. Perhaps I can just smoke on holidays or one day a week? But no, I musn't let my brain use these tricks on me.
How can it possibly be better to be reliant on cigarettes all the time? Those moments of sheer panic when you realise you have just about run out of ciggies and the shops have just closed.
How can it possibly be better to hardly own any clothes without a burn hole in them?
How can it possibly be better to stink like a polecat and stand outside in the rain smoking with all the other lepers when you are out at a club or function or whatever?
and all the other how can it possibly be better's!
The bottom line is, It Can't! You just need to retrain your brain that smoking is not the friend that it likes to think it is. Here I am, almost 2 months without a smoke and still wanting one? but don't let this scare you if you are also thinking of stopping, the actual cravings and thoughts are easily pushed aside, especially if you have a box of mints;) I am enjoying not spending my money on smokes and look forward to when I rarely think about them, I am sure the day will come, but for the moment it is just one day at a time!
Last time I stopped I went for around 6 weeks and I remember it seemed harder then, but it's just a matter of pushing those thoughts aside and getting back on track. It's not really a craving but just another trick your brain plays on you. I must admit I have times where I really can't imagine a future without a cigarette and wonder how will I ever really enjoy relaxing again. Perhaps I can just smoke on holidays or one day a week? But no, I musn't let my brain use these tricks on me.
How can it possibly be better to be reliant on cigarettes all the time? Those moments of sheer panic when you realise you have just about run out of ciggies and the shops have just closed.
How can it possibly be better to hardly own any clothes without a burn hole in them?
How can it possibly be better to stink like a polecat and stand outside in the rain smoking with all the other lepers when you are out at a club or function or whatever?
and all the other how can it possibly be better's!
The bottom line is, It Can't! You just need to retrain your brain that smoking is not the friend that it likes to think it is. Here I am, almost 2 months without a smoke and still wanting one? but don't let this scare you if you are also thinking of stopping, the actual cravings and thoughts are easily pushed aside, especially if you have a box of mints;) I am enjoying not spending my money on smokes and look forward to when I rarely think about them, I am sure the day will come, but for the moment it is just one day at a time!
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